The Rosas-Standring Family

Well, since our bikes all got stolen these past few days we have been dealing with it.  But it has been really upsetting.  I mean.   Bikes here get taken all of the time but to steal from kids is just messed up.  I mean, stealing from kids in Mexico is like one of the meanest things you could do.  It is not like the kids that grow up here have much to start with.

I must say something here though.  I am so amazed at my kids resilience.  Their positive outlook.  Lena says to me last night, "momma, remember when we gave our hair to that little girl because she was sick?  Maybe someone to my bike to her too."  She is way too sweet for her own good. 

I told her that was a wonderful way to think about it but that even if your have nice reasons it is still not okay to take something from someone else. 

Grandpa Neal and Grandma Paula came to our rescue once again.  They must really be sick of doing it because they have helped us more then a few times.  I am really excited though that they sent us some money to get new bikes.  I am so happy for the kids because they really deserve those bikes.  They have the best attitudes and imaginations when it comes to playing.  They will literally sit an spin a bottle cap back and forth for an hour.

I remember one time I was at the airport heading to or from the USA.  The kids were sitting on the floor in the airport flicking this bottle cap back and forth for quite a while.  There was a mother nearby who was dealing with some kids that were driving her crazy and she kept looking at my kids with this envious look.

Now let me first say... she caught us at a great moment.  My kids are by no means angels but at this particular moment no one else in the world would have known that.  Plus this poor mom was clearly at her wits end with her travels and I am sure that her kids were annoying more then they normally might.  I know that happens to me.   Once they get you into that mood- everything they do- or don't do drives you crazy.  Things that normally  you would not even notice.  I know that happens to me often.

I am going through a bit of a hard time.  I really do not want to be working outside of the home too much longer but not having money is really hard.  But here in Tulum ( I am not sure if it is the same everywhere) but here and in many small towns in the Yucatan - it is fully understood that the mother does not work. And it makes it impossible to be a part of our kids lives.  I am not really sure what I am going to do.

I really hope that my Tulum Living calendar takes off and I can just focus on that.  We will see. 

My poor little girl has been crying for 2 hours.  This is such bull shit.  What sort of an asshole steals from a 5 year old.  Ruben and I worked so hard to save up the money for those bikes. My kids got 1 gift from Santa last year- those bikes and this year they only got 1 present.  One of the neighbor boys stepped on Akilean's race track because he was mad at Akilean and now that is gone.  They have nothing for god sake.  And barbies being Barbies now have no arms and no cloths.

 You know this is bull shit.  My children have had their whole lives and everything they ever had ripped away from them.  They literally have like 8 toys between the 2 of them and they rode those bikes EVERYDAY for hours.  And now this.  They do not deserve this. 

And to add insult to injury.  Ruben had arranged a few nights stay at a beautiful little hotel here as an anniversary thing.  We have a few days planed for our 9 year anniversary next month.  We were going to use next paycheck to pay for dinner and what not.  Well, that is over.  Not that I mind giving that up to put towards new bikes for my kids but - fuck this.  I did not deserve this either.  How much more can I have taken from me?

I gave up my brand new home, my friends, my family all of my possessions- and I had finally gotten past all of the college crap furniture and had beautiful things.  All to come to this country were buying a bottle of wine for $5 is a HUGE treat.  and now this. 

Who does this.  What am I supposed to tell Lena.  I keep telling her that i am going to get her a new bike but that is going to take at least 2 months.  This is bullshit.  My kids already have nothing - how can you take more? 

I hate these people.   they better hope I never find them because hurting my kids like this is going to land them in a world of hurt.  People think my husband is a gangster thug- they have never seen a pissed off midget white lady from the states who has just had her kids fucked with.  Anyone who knows me from before knows how psycho I can be.  I have majorly chilled out in these past few years but doing this to my babies- Run you piece of shit- because I swear to god --God himself will cry when he sees what i have done to you. 

I am sorry for the language in this but I am fucking done with this bullshit.

Well we just had our Valentine's Day- and it happened to fall on Sunday when Ruben and I both did not work.  I have never been really huge on this day.  I mean- I am not one of those jaded people who sit back and pass a bunch of judgement - "you should show love everyday" kind of girls.  I do think that it is nice that there is a day out there - however commercial that remind people to celebrate to positive sides of relationships.  Let's face it- there are a lot of men and women out there who are not the romantic show your feelings everyday sort of people and this day in February is one when people are reminded to show a little extra- to offer a reminder- and to give that romantic opportunity to those in relationships.  On the flip side- yes it is commercial and over done and a very Hallmark holiday.  But stop being so flipping jaded.